Geriatric people

9.00 pagi tiba di hadapan stesen tram universiti dari arah laut. 

Nak lintas jer rail kereta api ttiba dengar kereta api datang dari arah bertentangan. 

Dok pikir nak lintas ke tak tue...ternampak makcik tua tengah lintas rail satu satu langkah dia, slow je dia jalan. 

Masa tue berdebar-debar terus lintas separuh tp bila toleh tengok kereta api makin dekat. Jadi mula menjerit. 

"Mamaaaaaaa!!!!!", walaupun slow dia dengar. 

Toleh lagi pada tram, tengok pemandu...kami angkat tangan. 

Nampak dia brek tapi kereta api masih laju wpun tram nie xde lah laju tapi inertia dia besar. 

Cepat-cepat kami lari pegang tangan makcik tua pastu tarik dia naik atas border jalan. 

Pakcik tram lalu sebelah sipi2 jer sambil membebel. 

"Saya betul-betul x nampak tadi", berkerut dahi dia. Kami nie lega. Nak jer cakap kenapa makcik tak lalu jalan depan tempat xde rail2 bagai ni. 

Pegang la dia langkah pagar tali besi rendah, nie kalau sendiri jatuh kan susah nanti. 

Geriatric people. 

Cant blame her more. 

Nak buat macam mana, dah kita beljar pendengaran dia kurang, pandangan dia kurang, dia jalan slow, jatuh senang, jarak xboleh nak anggar. 

Tapi satu. Diorang sebenarnya xnak susahkan sesiapa. 

Kita nak? Kita muda pun xnak. Orang tua pun sama la xnak. Sapa nak?

Kat dunia nie kita xnak susahkan orang. 

Esok2 kat akhirat jangan nak susahkan orang pulak. Susah mak, susah ayah, susah abang, susah kakak, susah adik, susah kawan. 

Jaga la diri. Atleast aurat tue, jaga. 

Adeiii. 

One more day in Pharmacology class revising anti diabetic drugs. 

X cukup revise drug, kena revise diri lagi. -_- drama harian ke nie. 

Oh Lord what are you showing us now. 

Moga esok baik-baik sahaja. 

#roadtopasirmas.

Masa muda masa berapi-api

8.45 pagi berlari cari tremco dkt pantai nak gi kelas. 

Nak lintas jer jalan, seorang mak cik nie duk lambai2. 

Rupanya dia nak lintas sekali sbb jalan besar, kereta laju. 

Lintas jer seberang jalan dia pun kata, 

"masa saya muda dulu, jantung saya kuat lagi mcm kamu" 

Ouch. Deep betul ayat makcik. 

Pagi-pagi lagi dah dapat motivasi. Allahu. Allah sentiasa ada bersama kita. 

Masa muda nie lah jantung kita kuat, kesihatan kita baik, semangat kita tinggi, kekuatan kita banyak. 

Bak kata filem laskar pelangi, "Masa muda masa berapi-api" 

Moga api pemuda ini bersinar sama cahaya keimanan. 

Egypt terlalu byk mentarbiyyah diri. Its gonna hard to say goodbye later. 

#roadtopasirmas

Oversea Photo Goal 1: achived

Naee...i have spoke with the sun :) when it went down to earth before its dissapear 

Because its never about ourselve. Genki des.

I need to lower down my ego

"So what is your diagnosis?", it keep ringing in my mind since then. Everytime i remember i hate myself. 

Again today in front of the doctor during the OSCE i was asked the same question. I didnt see that coming. My mind was ready for only clinical examination. It was not the diagnosis that traumatize me, its the heavy load i need to be responsible after saying the diagnosis. Why? What? How? I cant bear it. 

Did my mind stuck to the level of diagnosing only?

I have to learn to accept my flaws. I cant be perfectionist. I should do my very best, itqan. But i should never let perfection destroy myself confidence. I must accept it as my mistake but i should never let myself thinking im sucks. I should learn to lean more to Allah, and that He is the only One with Perfection. 

My patient cant afford my flaws. Yes i know. I should never let a word slip from my tongue again without thinking. I must be certain and specific. Or i should not act blindly. I should be precise and effective. I should not only know the diagnosis. I must know the disease well. Because im treating the patient and not the disease. But again i should bare in my small mind to be ready that i may make mistake again in the future because i have my weakness and ready to learn and improve. I should not break then. No one in this life never make a mistake at all. I was destined to make mistake and learned it hardly. Because Allah know how to teach me best. 

Tell myself repeatedly. I have weakness, lower down my ego. I must agree to say it was my fault

This is it. I learned it hardly. Then i should never repeat the same mistake if im truly regret. 

Thank you doctor for coaching me to be not just a doctor but a human.

O' Lord all gratefull goes to you. Guide me, for i never did anything right.

#roadtopasirmas