Mesir dan Malaysia kita satu jiwa

Fault

There was this one day, when i was ranting myself on one issue and asked myself, "is this a test or a punishment from Allah? Is this my fault or my fate from Allah?" 

I go through the videos searching for the answer. And i found one ayat from suratul Ali-Imran verse 165 reveal during the War of Uhud. It was a revealation answering the question of mukminin when they were asked to stay on the Uhud during the battle but when they saw the enemy withdrawing from the battle field and they started to go down the hill. Finally, the soldier of Islam lost in Uhud because they disobey Rasulullah S.A.W. 

It was their fault. Because they disobeyed. But they question it in the ayat: 

[Dan mengapa kamu (heran) ketika ditimpa musibah (kekalahan pada Perang Uhud), padahal kamu telah menimpakan musibah dua kali lipat (kepada musuh-musuhmu pada Perang Badar) kamu berkata, “Dari mana datangnya (kekalahan) ini?” Katakanlah, “Itu dari (kesalahan) dirimu sendiri.” Sungguh, Allah Mahakuasa atas segala sesuatu.] Ali- Imran:165 

Syeikh kata, manusia nie ada yang terlalu extreme pada Allah, semua benda letak itu adalah ketentuan Allah. Boleh, tp bila melampau ia akan melahirkan manusia yang tidak sedar diri untuk berusaha. Ketahuilah, bila sesuatu perkara itu tanggungjawab kita, atau sesuatu itu dalam bidang kuasa kita untuk menguruskannya, jika gagal kerana kita tidak bertanggungjwb, kita tidak kontrol dgn baik, maka itu silap kita. 

Syeikh kata, jaga adab dengan Allah. Dont blame your defect on Allah. Kalau sikap kita yg mcm tue xselayaknya nk minta kejayaan dr Allah. So please improve. 

Syeikh terang lagi, ada org dia terlalu extreme pada diri sendiri. Semua benda salahkan diri. 

"Oh, ini mesti sebab ada dosa-dosa yang saya lakukan", boleh, tp bila melampau ia akan melahirkan manusia yang tidak tunduk pada ketentuan qada dan qadar Allah. Ketahuilah, bila sesuatu perkara diluar bidang kuasa kita, segala usaha sudah kita buat jika gagal itu kerana

 Allah uji kita. Kemalangan kereta dalam keadaan kita sudah menlaksanakan ciri-ciri keselamatan yg penting, silap, kalau kita tetap salahkan diri kita, itu dari Allah,,when it is put of our control. 

Dont blame yourself for all the deficiency. 

Know where your limit. Dan sentiasalah bersederhana. Do your responsibility, in things you control. Believe its a test from Allah when it is something out of your control. 

Pesanan penting: all and all, apa pun jadi, apa pun masalah kalian please study everyday. Plan ur work and study. Masalah dlm kerja tell me and mari kiat selesaikan sama. If i know any of you not revising ur study in one day, you will have to hear kakak membebel sepanjang hari. Siap korang. Semua org dah masuk fasa kerap exam every two weeks utk medik and everyweek utk dentist, so please study. Yg round dua bulan and sebulan, also please study. No exception given. No excuse.

Dont give up

"Why did u never give up?", tanya sasuke satu hari lepas final battle mereka berdua. Sasuke mesti pastikan dia lebih kuat dari Naruto. Tp x, dia kalah jugak dgn naruto yg xpernah mengalah tarik dia balik ke pangkal jalan. 

"Because its hurts so bad, that i cant ignore you", said naruto. Its hurts to see people that we loved hurts. just because we give up, we actually hurt them more. I did once and i know the suffer. 

Dont give up. Stand up and be strong, lets help them heal. 

The one i was afraid most to hurt if i gave up is my mother and my father. So do you right. Just please dont. 

Fighting for CCC all dear final year dental sisters. 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 you can do this. 

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Chingu i love you

Since i cant help you, i didnt want to hurt you some more, chingu. 

No matter what people see or say, but because this way i can love you without hurting you then i will just stay at this distance as long as it make you happy. 

A joy for me can be a pain for you, 

A pain for me sometimes be joyyed for you, 

But i can never lie more, 

A word from me may be a different meaning to you, 

The best action in my may always be wrong to you, 

My silent can also be wrong to you, 

My present and absent can also be wrong to you, 

See how many things can i do wrong to you, 

So i should stop and go, 

For i always will hurt you, 

For what i do can never be right but hurting you heart, 

But i can never lie more, 

To be happy when i was not. 

Automatic Thoughts

I thought for a night. That i should stop writting in facebook again. 

I distract my focus. I feel to happy to share with people but it just dont right because i feel doing it all the time, when actually i had other important thing to settle on time. 

I told my mother i cant focus on my reading. And somepart of me wanna lazy around and i didnt feel the eager to know the knowledge again because i think i have read the book and i already know. But i still forget it in the exams, so i should read. 

I think its because i shared all my life in facebook that i didnt save part for myself to be secret. Then i will solely attach to the worl i made. 

Lord please guide me back to you. I am heading in the wrong direction. 

Plus my ATs or automatic thought starting to grow bigger and bigger. 

I need to record it, rasionalize, and respond it well not by updating status because that will make worst. 

Ok. I need to start reading my books again. Focus and stop and stay away from public for a atleast a 3 weeks plus minus. 

Remember, i wanna be a doctor. And actually i had a dream that i wanna get A for internal medicine as a gift for my parent. But everything seem harder now. But i should not give up. 

I must study hard and get As. This is my last chance. Lord help me too. Help me please. Even i study i still forget and then the question sheet will be so difficult for me. Im afraid lord. Please help me. Please. 

I cant never get A without you. Because you are the Only to do everything compare to my small effort. 

Lord pleaseee. I need your help. 

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